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CHAPTER III
The Night Shadows
Wonderful fact to reflect upon, that every human creature is constituted
to be that profound secret and mystery to every other. A solemn consideration,
when enter a great city by night, that every one of those darkly clustered
houses encloses its own secret; that every room in every one of them encloses
its own secret; that every beating heart in the hundreds of thousands of
breasts there, is, if some of its imaginings, a secret to the heart nearest
it! Something of the awfulness, even of Death itself, is referable to this.
No more can I turn the leaves of this dear book that loved, and vainly
hope in time to read it all. No more can I look into the depths of this
unfathomable water, wherein as momentary lights glanced into it, I have
had glimpses of buried treasure and other things submerged. It was appointed
that the book should shut with a spring, for ever and for ever, when I
had read but a page. It was appointed that the water should be locked in
an eternal frost, when the light was playing on its surface, and I stood
in ignorance on the shore. My friend is dead, my neighbour is dead, my
love the darling of my soul, is dead; it is the inexorable consolidation
and perpetuation of the secret that was always in that individuality, and
which I shall carry in mine to my life's end. In any of the burial-places
of this city through which I pass, is there a sleeper more inscrutable
than it busy inhabitants are, in their innermost personality, to me or
than I am to them?
As to this, his natural and not to be alienated inheritance the
messenger on horseback had exactly the same possession as the King, the
first Minister of State, or the richest merchant in London. So with the
three passengers shut up i' the narrow compass of one lumbering old mail-coach;
the were mysteries to one another, as complete as if each ha been in his
own coach and six, or his own coach and sixty, with the breadth of a county
between him and the next.
The messenger rode back at an easy trot, stopping pretty often
at ale-houses by the way to drink, but evincing tendency to keep his own
counsel, and to keep his hat cocked over his eyes. He had eyes that assorted
very well with that decoration, being of a surface black, with no depth
in the colour or form, and much too near together--as if they were afraid
of being found out in something, singly, if they kept too far apart. They
had a sinister expression, under an old cocked-hat like a three-cornered
spittoon, and over a great muffler for the chin and throat, which descended
nearly to the wearer's knees. When he stopped for drink, he moved this
muffler with his left hand, only while he poured his liquor in with his
right; as soon as that was done, he muffled again.
No, Jerry, no!' said the messenger, harping on one theme as he
rode. `It wouldn't do for you, Jerry. Jerry, you honest tradesman, it wouldn't
suit your line of business! Recalled--! Bust me if I don't think
he'd been a drinking!'
His message perplexed his mind to that degree that he was fain,
several times, to take off his hat to scratch his head. Except on the crown,
which was raggedly bald, he had stiff black hair, standing jaggedly all
over it, and growing down hill almost to his broad, blunt nose. It was
so like smith's work, so much more like the top of a strongly spiked wall
than a head of hair, that the best of players at leap-frog might have declined
him, as the most dangerous man in the world to go over.
While he trotted back with the message he was to deliver to the
night watchman in his box at the door of Tellson's Bank, by Temple Bar,
who was to deliver it to greater authorities within, the shadows of the
night took such shapes to him as arose out of the message, and took such
shapes to the mare as arose out of her private topics of uneasiness.
They seemed to be numerous, for she shied at every shadow on the road.
What time, the mail-coach lumbered, jolted, rattled, and bumped
upon its tedious way, with its three fellow-inscrutables inside. To whom,
likewise, the shadows of the night revealed themselves, in the forms their
dozing eyes and wandering thoughts suggested.
Tellson's Bank had a run upon it in the mail. As the bank passenger--with
an arm drawn through the leathern strap, which did what lay in it to keep
him from pounding against the next passenger, and driving him into his
comer, whenever the coach got a special jolt--nodded in his place, with
half-shut eyes, the little coach-windows, and the coach-lamp dimly gleaming
through them, and the bulky bundle of opposite passenger, became the bank,
and did a great stroke of business. The rattle of the harness was the chink
of money, and more drafts were honoured in five minutes than even Tellson's,
with all its foreign and home connexion, ever paid in thrice the time.
Then the strong-rooms underground, at Tellson's, with such of their valuable
stores and secrets as were known to the passenger (and it was not a little
that he knew about them), opened before him, and he went in among them
with the great keys and the feebly-burning candle, and found them safe,
and strong, and sound, and still, just as he had last seen them.
But, though the bank was almost always with him, and though the
coach (in a confused way, like the presence of pain under an opiate) was
always with him, there was another current of impression that never ceased
to run, all through the night. He was on his way to dig some one out of
a grave.
Now, which of the multitude of faces that showed themselves before
him was the true face of the buried person, the shadows of the night did
not indicate; but they were all the faces of a man of five-and-forty by
years, and they differed principally in the passions they expressed, and
in the ghastliness of their worn and wasted state. Pride, contempt, defiance,
stubbornness, submission, lamentation, succeeded one another; so did varieties
of sunken cheek, cadaverous colour, emaciated hands and figures. But the
face was in the main one face, and every head was prematurely white. A
hundred times the dozing passenger inquired of this spectre:
`Buried how long?'
The answer was always the same: `Almost eighteen years.'
`You had abandoned all hope of being dug out?'
`Long ago.'
`You know that you are recalled to life?'
`They tell me so.
`I hope you care to live?'
`I can't say.'
`Shall I show her to you? Will you come and see he''
The answers to this question were various and contradictory. Sometimes
the broken reply was, `Wait! It would kill me if I saw her too soon.' Sometimes,
it was given in a tender rain of tears, and then it was `Take me to her.'
Sometimes it was staring and bewildered, and then it was, `I don't know
her. I don't understand.'
After such imaginary discourse, the passenger in his fancy would
dig, and dig, dig--now, with a spade, now with a great key, now with his
hands--to dig this wretched creature out. Got out at last, with earth hanging
about his face and hair, he would suddenly fall away to dust. The passenger
would then start to himself and lower the window, to get the reality of
mist and rain on his cheek.
Yet even when his eyes were opened on the mist and rain, on the
moving patch of light from the lamps, and the hedge at the roadside retreating
by jerks, the night shadow's outside the coach would fall into the train
of the night shadows within. The real Banking-house by Temple Bar, the
real business of the past day, the real strong-rooms, the real express
sent after him, and the real message returned, would all be there. Out
of the midst of them, the ghostly face would rise, and he would accost
it again.
`Buried how long?'
`Almost eighteen years.
`I hope you care to live?'
`I can't say.'
Dig--dig--dig--until an impatient movement from one of the two
passengers would admonish him to pull up the window, draw his arm securely
through the leathern strap, and speculate upon the two slumbering forms,
until his mind lost its hold of them, and they again slid away into the
bank and the grave.
`Buried how long?'
`Almost eighteen years.'
`You had abandoned all hope of being dug out?'
`Long ago.'
The words were still in his hearing as just spoken--distinctly
in his hearing as ever spoken words had been in his life--when the weary
passenger started to the consciousness of daylight, and found that the
shadows of the night were gone.
He lowered the window, and looked out at the rising sun. There
was a ridge of ploughed land, with a plough upon it where it had been left
last night when the horses were unyoked; beyond, a quiet coppice-wood,
in which many leaves of burning red and golden yellow still remained upon
the trees. Though the earth was cold and wet, the sky was clear, and the
sun rose bright, placid, and beautiful.
`Eighteen years!' said the passenger, looking at the sun. `Gracious
Creator of day! To be buried alive for eighteen years!'
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